I know I haven't blogged much over the last few months. I had decided it was in my best interest to worry about myself for a while and not things like blogging. Like everyone does we close out the old year and start a new one with hopes that things are more prosperous in one way or another, I'm no different. So as I sit here I try and plot my 2007 journey while looking back on my 2006 ups and downs.
To say 2006 was a good year for me would be a gross overstatement but to negate it to strict negative terms would be doing the things I have worked so hard on an injustice. So I've had a rough year but I'm a much better person in the process.
2006 saw me blogging about some deeply personal issues that I was aware most people would simply either not understand or view in a very negative way. I have to say I was a bit surprised by the reaction to some degree. Those who truly cared were supportive whether they understood it or not and those who weren't simply didn't say a word. I guess you could say not one person stepped to the plate to make it a bad thing, they just let me live without bothering me...
I went from taking Gender identity disorder as a shameful, guilty thing that I was destined to run from and hide for my entire life to talking about it. I'm happy to say that I've closed the circle of people smaller and smaller about those who know and we are getting down to the core group that will be brought into the loop next.
Overall for the first time in my life I'm feeling better about this issue and myself. My cousin always had a saying .. "It is what it is" and I guess I've learned that this is just that. I cannot control it but I cannot allow it to take control of me. I've grown by leaps and bounds this year and I thank everyone who supported me and showed me that life needs to be lived and not just survived.
The one person who never ceases to amaze me is my wife who has not only showed me love in this but showed me the better I become for it, the more in love she becomes with me. If there was ever a rock in my life to lean on then she was the one.
My daughter started coming back into my life this year which was an absolute joy for me. She had been the person I missed the most over the last few years. I'm sad in the fact that things turned sour again and the decisions she has made hurt our whole family. Regardless of those decisions we all love her dearly and hope she stays safe and well. Recently she delivered news to us that we viewed as less than happy. I feel bad in the sense that I want to support her but I'm having a hard time being supportive of something that I don't agree with. Recently she got upset with me because I wouldn't discuss it with her. I tried to explain that in the discussion one person will walk away hurt. If I tell her my true feelings then she gets hurt and if I lie I walk away hurt, I've chosen to simply not deal with it for now. I know it sounds like a cop out but it seems to be the only way to preserve myself for now.
I love my daughter with all my heart, I simply cannot be around the people she has chosen to spend her life with so in my world the most important people have to be Diane and I for now.
So many things have happened this year yet when we hit the end of the year it almost becomes a blur now. Some friends got married, Two bought houses, One got a Jackson endorsement. We added a new puppy to our home. I bought a mustang. The one thing that remains constant in the whole thing is that time marches on and it marched quickly this year.
So as I sit here in a quiet house pondering what changes I've made and what changes are coming in the upcoming year I tip my glass to all of my friends. I salute all of you and hope that all your dreams come true for the new year and most of all I thank you for being there for me in the past year. You all hold a special place in not only my heart but Diane's as well .....
Happy 2007 peoples
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Friday, December 22, 2006
He's settling in just well ..
Well we decided on his name it's RYDER! .. a variation on rider which is what we like to do on our Harley's ...He's getting along great with our Shepherd and she seems to be a lot happier with the youngin around to annoy her...
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
New Family member
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With all the changes in dynamics back and forth this year it had become noticible that our Shepherd was having seperation anxiety when we were leaving the house. We had always considered adopting a 2nd dog for her to have as a playmate as Shepherds are high energy dogs and our Moxie is no different.
Recently some friends of ours had a very good experience with a local rescue league. Dee and I we very opposed to starting from a puppy but it seemed as though all the stars aligned in that manner for us and Moxie.
This is the newest member of the Mayday household and he has yet to be named. At 8 weeks he had weighed 11 pounds so it is safe to assume he will be a good sized dog...
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Sunday, November 19, 2006
oh well
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Sunday, November 05, 2006
Family history
A few years ago I decided it would be in my best interest to learn about the origins of my family for not only me but my daughter. I figured it would be nice to have so my daughter would be able to hand it down to her children and eventually grandchildren.
In my searches a few years ago I was using an online genealogy site when I came across a posting that struck me. It was from a pair of girls searching for their dad whom they had never met. It seems their mom have given them up for adoption when they were very young and their dad never knew of their existence.
The ad they had placed made mention of a circus trainer and an area that he may have spent time in. As I read the ad I slowly became shocked because part of my family history was unfolding before my eyes.
My Uncle Bill was an Elephant trainer for the Barnum and Baily circus and for the most part a gypsy. I believe he had gotten involved with the circus through an uncle of his or even a grandfather. What stuck me was that he never knew that his daughters even existed. The ad that I was reading were in fact long lost cousins searching for their family.
When I got in contact with them I figured i could help them locate their dad. No one in the family had heard from him in years and sadly my own father took his life in 1995 so I didn't have his knowledge t fall back on. I did the next best thing and contacted an Aunt I knew of but never met.
The mistake the girls were making was the fact that they were searching for a William Maynard which was My Uncles legal name. Having had a lot of shady past in my family I heard stories of the name being hidden for a period of time to keep my grandfather out of jail. My grandfather had taken on his mothers maiden name of Manigan and never told the children of their origins. It wasn't until my dad would get thrown out of the military and told to get his name fixed that the truth would come to light. My Uncle would never fix his last name to the correct surname..
When I knew exactly who I was looking for it was a matter of a few keystrokes to find out that my Uncle Bill had already past away in Garland (Hot Springs) Arkansas. The girls would never get to meet their dad unfortunately. My Uncle did have a son but that boy never knew what his true surname was so to this date he still uses the name Daniel Manigan... unaware he has cousins and even sisters from the Maynard surname...
I dropped out of doing the genealogy search for a while but in a quest of finding out my new found cousin continued on with the search and opened up a plethora of information regarding our family. Tonight as I was reading though my family tree and searching further for info I got a scope for where my family tree goes which is nothing short of amazing..
My family is among the oldest in this country starting with Thomas Minor (1608 - 1690) coming to this country and landing in Salem Ma on July 1629. He was one of the founding members of the First Church in this country. The old north church in Boston is the Second Church and was known as such. Apparently Thomas was one of the first settlers to start the puritan (Protestant) religion in this country.... not bad considering my true views on the church ....
It simply amazes me that my roots are so deep in this country and in New England in general. I guess you could say I am lucky enough to have had family that lived through every ounce of modern history this country has endured since its birth ..
Cool huh ...
In my searches a few years ago I was using an online genealogy site when I came across a posting that struck me. It was from a pair of girls searching for their dad whom they had never met. It seems their mom have given them up for adoption when they were very young and their dad never knew of their existence.
The ad they had placed made mention of a circus trainer and an area that he may have spent time in. As I read the ad I slowly became shocked because part of my family history was unfolding before my eyes.
My Uncle Bill was an Elephant trainer for the Barnum and Baily circus and for the most part a gypsy. I believe he had gotten involved with the circus through an uncle of his or even a grandfather. What stuck me was that he never knew that his daughters even existed. The ad that I was reading were in fact long lost cousins searching for their family.
When I got in contact with them I figured i could help them locate their dad. No one in the family had heard from him in years and sadly my own father took his life in 1995 so I didn't have his knowledge t fall back on. I did the next best thing and contacted an Aunt I knew of but never met.
The mistake the girls were making was the fact that they were searching for a William Maynard which was My Uncles legal name. Having had a lot of shady past in my family I heard stories of the name being hidden for a period of time to keep my grandfather out of jail. My grandfather had taken on his mothers maiden name of Manigan and never told the children of their origins. It wasn't until my dad would get thrown out of the military and told to get his name fixed that the truth would come to light. My Uncle would never fix his last name to the correct surname..
When I knew exactly who I was looking for it was a matter of a few keystrokes to find out that my Uncle Bill had already past away in Garland (Hot Springs) Arkansas. The girls would never get to meet their dad unfortunately. My Uncle did have a son but that boy never knew what his true surname was so to this date he still uses the name Daniel Manigan... unaware he has cousins and even sisters from the Maynard surname...
I dropped out of doing the genealogy search for a while but in a quest of finding out my new found cousin continued on with the search and opened up a plethora of information regarding our family. Tonight as I was reading though my family tree and searching further for info I got a scope for where my family tree goes which is nothing short of amazing..
My family is among the oldest in this country starting with Thomas Minor (1608 - 1690) coming to this country and landing in Salem Ma on July 1629. He was one of the founding members of the First Church in this country. The old north church in Boston is the Second Church and was known as such. Apparently Thomas was one of the first settlers to start the puritan (Protestant) religion in this country.... not bad considering my true views on the church ....
It simply amazes me that my roots are so deep in this country and in New England in general. I guess you could say I am lucky enough to have had family that lived through every ounce of modern history this country has endured since its birth ..
Cool huh ...
Friday, November 03, 2006
Two Wolves
One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, The battle is between two 'wolves' inside us all.
One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego.
The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf wins?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."
One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego.
The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf wins?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Hey how ya been
Well it has most certainly been a while since I posted anything of substance. I had decided to step back because I needed to get out of the negative funk I had been in and just start to let life be. I've been told by numerous people I over think everything and I need to just be. Well that's something I have been trying to do more of and not get sucked in by any negative black holes.
So what's news?
Annah Moore's book came out this past week and showed up on my doorstep Monday evening. For those who aren't aware that may read this Annah is a cool friend of mine who kicks ass on the guitar. Annah has written a book with her experience about G.I.D, Transsexualism and Transition
I sat and read the book over the course of two evenings and I have to say I'm quite impressed with her insight. Her book is written in a well spoken and thought out manner. While we have had prior discussions about a lot of what ended up in her book, it amazes me how many parallels that anyone dealing with this seem to have. To sit and read another persons experience and be able to so closely and directly relate it to your own is nothing short of mind numbing.
If you are dealing with this issue or simply want to educate yourself please take it upon yourself to read this book. The more people that educate themselves the healthier this world becomes..
Knowledge is power...
You can find her book at http://www.iuniverse.com/bookstore/book_detail.asp?&isbn=0-595-39523-6
I challenge people to open their minds and read it without prejudice
Next up,
I've been taking more and more steps to let people know what has been going on with me and the circle of people that know is slowly closing in now. For most this may not seem like a big deal but for me it is huge. This is the biggest step in releasing myself of all the years of guilt, frustration and self hatred. In every step I've made it has been refreshing and freeing. as difficult as this is to deal with it has made me feel more at ease not running for the first time in life.
This is it for now but it certainly beats complaining ..Hope ya'll are well and have a kick ass day
So what's news?
Annah Moore's book came out this past week and showed up on my doorstep Monday evening. For those who aren't aware that may read this Annah is a cool friend of mine who kicks ass on the guitar. Annah has written a book with her experience about G.I.D, Transsexualism and Transition
I sat and read the book over the course of two evenings and I have to say I'm quite impressed with her insight. Her book is written in a well spoken and thought out manner. While we have had prior discussions about a lot of what ended up in her book, it amazes me how many parallels that anyone dealing with this seem to have. To sit and read another persons experience and be able to so closely and directly relate it to your own is nothing short of mind numbing.
If you are dealing with this issue or simply want to educate yourself please take it upon yourself to read this book. The more people that educate themselves the healthier this world becomes..
Knowledge is power...
You can find her book at http://www.iuniverse.com/bookstore/book_detail.asp?&isbn=0-595-39523-6
I challenge people to open their minds and read it without prejudice
Next up,
I've been taking more and more steps to let people know what has been going on with me and the circle of people that know is slowly closing in now. For most this may not seem like a big deal but for me it is huge. This is the biggest step in releasing myself of all the years of guilt, frustration and self hatred. In every step I've made it has been refreshing and freeing. as difficult as this is to deal with it has made me feel more at ease not running for the first time in life.
This is it for now but it certainly beats complaining ..Hope ya'll are well and have a kick ass day
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Fear, Frustration, Guilt and time to eat Crowe
In a hastily made decision very early yesterday morning on very little sleep I yanked my blog down and sent out emails regarding the fact I was pulling it. I have had a few people come forward in the last 24 hours and kick me in the ass a bit so I'm going to get this out in the open ..
Chad, Todd and Diane~
Thanks for pointing out the things you did which are real valid points for at a minimum for leaving this blog up. It doesn't mean there has to be a post everyday but the info that it there is good and hell it's good therapy. The fact is that I control the information I put in it and not others.
Emily~
My sincere apologies for a few off the wall emails to you over the last few weeks. You have certainly been cool, understanding a patient, probably more than I could have even been.
Annah~
Your latest paragraph was pointed to by Diane in an email and it made a lot of sense about what I've been going through lately ..
I've written about some pretty intense personal issues over the last several months and for some maybe it is too much information and for others it isn't enough. Those issues had started to catch up with me lately and get inside my head. The problem was it was controlling my thoughts and not allowing me to think clearly.
At a recent family gathering for my wife's nephew things started closing in hard on me. Her family has not been made aware of what has been going on with me yet. They know that something is up and I am working on things but they have no idea of the depth of the issue,
During this event I started to get the feeling of disconnect with her family and began to feel guilty and fearful. I have dealt with a large fear in my life of being alone as the people in my life have been a revolving door without concern for my feelings. My family has always been one of ignoring others in rough times because they are mad and it simply easier than to be caring.
When it came to my GID I spent my life living in fear of people finding out, being ostracized, being labelled a freak and most of all not being loved as this was all I ever knew of my family. I recently told my wife I would rather live miserable and have my family than to do anything about it and lose.
Why do we go through life giving so much of ourselves out of fear and guilt? Is it right of me to look past my own well being for the happiness of the people around me? I used to think that was right, that sacrifice is what life was all about and I need to relearn something I thought I had conquered over the last year.
It is alright to be a little selfish for your own well being.
So here we are... I need to take control again of my fears..
The blogs purpose simply put..
Therapy
A place to talk about major issues without it being a rumor
A place to discuss hard personal issues and be in control of my fears
Hopefully someone else will either learn something, or someone who is dealing with it understands they aren't alone in it..
I am thankful for my friends and I am sorry for being a pain in any ones ass ..
In closing I want to quote Annah Moore's latest entry and I hope she doesn't mind.
"Life is about balance; about being in tune with yourself so that you can be in tune with everything, and everyone, else. When there is no peace within, there can be little or no peace in our lives as a whole. We only get one shot to do this, to live, to learn, to enjoy the most precious thing of all: the time that we have on Earth. Don't waste it being miserable. Don't waste it because of fear. LIVE life. How can we live our lives when we are not even ourselves? That is not living... that is waiting to die, or worse... that is living dead.
I will live my life to the fullest extent possible, or I will die trying." ~Annah Moore~
Chad, Todd and Diane~
Thanks for pointing out the things you did which are real valid points for at a minimum for leaving this blog up. It doesn't mean there has to be a post everyday but the info that it there is good and hell it's good therapy. The fact is that I control the information I put in it and not others.
Emily~
My sincere apologies for a few off the wall emails to you over the last few weeks. You have certainly been cool, understanding a patient, probably more than I could have even been.
Annah~
Your latest paragraph was pointed to by Diane in an email and it made a lot of sense about what I've been going through lately ..
I've written about some pretty intense personal issues over the last several months and for some maybe it is too much information and for others it isn't enough. Those issues had started to catch up with me lately and get inside my head. The problem was it was controlling my thoughts and not allowing me to think clearly.
At a recent family gathering for my wife's nephew things started closing in hard on me. Her family has not been made aware of what has been going on with me yet. They know that something is up and I am working on things but they have no idea of the depth of the issue,
During this event I started to get the feeling of disconnect with her family and began to feel guilty and fearful. I have dealt with a large fear in my life of being alone as the people in my life have been a revolving door without concern for my feelings. My family has always been one of ignoring others in rough times because they are mad and it simply easier than to be caring.
When it came to my GID I spent my life living in fear of people finding out, being ostracized, being labelled a freak and most of all not being loved as this was all I ever knew of my family. I recently told my wife I would rather live miserable and have my family than to do anything about it and lose.
Why do we go through life giving so much of ourselves out of fear and guilt? Is it right of me to look past my own well being for the happiness of the people around me? I used to think that was right, that sacrifice is what life was all about and I need to relearn something I thought I had conquered over the last year.
It is alright to be a little selfish for your own well being.
So here we are... I need to take control again of my fears..
The blogs purpose simply put..
Therapy
A place to talk about major issues without it being a rumor
A place to discuss hard personal issues and be in control of my fears
Hopefully someone else will either learn something, or someone who is dealing with it understands they aren't alone in it..
I am thankful for my friends and I am sorry for being a pain in any ones ass ..
In closing I want to quote Annah Moore's latest entry and I hope she doesn't mind.
"Life is about balance; about being in tune with yourself so that you can be in tune with everything, and everyone, else. When there is no peace within, there can be little or no peace in our lives as a whole. We only get one shot to do this, to live, to learn, to enjoy the most precious thing of all: the time that we have on Earth. Don't waste it being miserable. Don't waste it because of fear. LIVE life. How can we live our lives when we are not even ourselves? That is not living... that is waiting to die, or worse... that is living dead.
I will live my life to the fullest extent possible, or I will die trying." ~Annah Moore~
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Rain
Nice cool rain tonight and the sound is sooo soothing. Nice way to clear the head and be at peace with your thoughts. Yesterdays entry may have seemed a bit cryptic or out in left field and who knows maybe from the outside looking in it was. Maybe a bit of insecurity from the inside makes it that.
Things are good, life is ok. I'm just learning to cope with it a bit differently. I've never been out of my element like this, some days are good ones, some days are rough ones, but at the end of the road at least I'm still here to weather the rough ones and take in the good ones.
I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm not asking for permission or validation .. I'm just learning. Learning how to deal with a world that I'm looking at with wider eyes for the first time. When dealing with the G.I.D apparently it can be a common thing, it is the first time I've not sheltered the way I felt or view the world around me.
My way of dealing has always been to put my thoughts in writing, and my feelings into the guitar it is all good therapy.
Tonight we went out to panera for a light dinner and just talked. For the first time my wife was able to put some things into perspective for me that were a little harder for me to view without being a bit blinded by my own thoughts and emotions. She made a lot of sense and the nice part was she understood where I was coming from and pointed to things that were good for me to see...
Things are good, life is ok. I'm just learning to cope with it a bit differently. I've never been out of my element like this, some days are good ones, some days are rough ones, but at the end of the road at least I'm still here to weather the rough ones and take in the good ones.
I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm not asking for permission or validation .. I'm just learning. Learning how to deal with a world that I'm looking at with wider eyes for the first time. When dealing with the G.I.D apparently it can be a common thing, it is the first time I've not sheltered the way I felt or view the world around me.
My way of dealing has always been to put my thoughts in writing, and my feelings into the guitar it is all good therapy.
My insecurity is what has been driving me lately. It's been making me more aware of not only my surroundings but people around me. It's made me feel like I'm constantly being watched and it isn't something I've been accustomed to dealing with through my life. At least I'm experiencing and learning from it... Before I was numb to it, now I'm just aware...
Tonight we went out to panera for a light dinner and just talked. For the first time my wife was able to put some things into perspective for me that were a little harder for me to view without being a bit blinded by my own thoughts and emotions. She made a lot of sense and the nice part was she understood where I was coming from and pointed to things that were good for me to see...
More back in the day remembering
I always loved this picture. This was late in 1985 from the day my daughter was baptized. Yes baptized!! don't ask ... lol .. Everytime I see this picture it reminds me of how young we were when we started out. As young as we were and as tough as it was I still wouldn't change that part of my life. I think in a lot of respects it kept me on the planet for a little longer than I originally thought I'd be.. .
I look at this photo of my wife from then and photos now, I have to say she grew more and more beautiful with age.
I look at this photo of my wife from then and photos now, I have to say she grew more and more beautiful with age.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
I'm tired
I'm tired.. I'm tired of people, I'm tired of living with this, I'm tired of fear and frustration, I'm tired of suddenly feel so insecure over everything, I'm tired of people who take but cannot give and I'm just plain tired of living tonight.
I try so hard to be open, giving and caring. Maybe I try too hard who knows. I try to be generous with my time, my ear, my compassion and my money. I constantly try to give but rarely ever get in return.
Don't get me wrong I do have a few friends that check in and try and make sure I'm good. I appreciate those people more than I could ever express to them, albeit I try to make sure they know it.
I'm not sure when the turning point was for me I can't put my finger on the day or anything. I was always outgoing and confident even with my hidden secrets. But lately I'm insecure and I'm not used to feeling that way. I'm constantly beating myself up wondering what people think and caring too much about what they think. My skin has gotten thin.. thinner than it has been since I was a kid..
When I was young I was semi introverted, unsure of myself in this world and not extremely outgoing. As I got older music and bands changed that for me. I became a little more of an extrovert and I noticed that people were drawn to me.
Call it cocky or call it confidence, whatever you want, but I had that certain charisma that people seemed to be drawn towards. I was never a follower, I couldn't be. My wife knew it. she could never understand how no matter where we went someone would either know me or talk to me like they had known me their whole lives.. Is that being cocky? who knows
The confidence was a good way of not letting people in and it certainly helped keep me from being hurt by people. It helped hide the real me, it helped conceal my darkest fears and make them shielded from making me a vulnerable person
So how did I go from people being drawn to me to feeling as though I've been pushing them away?When did I lose that self confidence I had become so used too.
Tonight I'm certainly tired..... I'm tired of life..
I try so hard to be open, giving and caring. Maybe I try too hard who knows. I try to be generous with my time, my ear, my compassion and my money. I constantly try to give but rarely ever get in return.
Don't get me wrong I do have a few friends that check in and try and make sure I'm good. I appreciate those people more than I could ever express to them, albeit I try to make sure they know it.
I'm not sure when the turning point was for me I can't put my finger on the day or anything. I was always outgoing and confident even with my hidden secrets. But lately I'm insecure and I'm not used to feeling that way. I'm constantly beating myself up wondering what people think and caring too much about what they think. My skin has gotten thin.. thinner than it has been since I was a kid..
When I was young I was semi introverted, unsure of myself in this world and not extremely outgoing. As I got older music and bands changed that for me. I became a little more of an extrovert and I noticed that people were drawn to me.
Call it cocky or call it confidence, whatever you want, but I had that certain charisma that people seemed to be drawn towards. I was never a follower, I couldn't be. My wife knew it. she could never understand how no matter where we went someone would either know me or talk to me like they had known me their whole lives.. Is that being cocky? who knows
The confidence was a good way of not letting people in and it certainly helped keep me from being hurt by people. It helped hide the real me, it helped conceal my darkest fears and make them shielded from making me a vulnerable person
So how did I go from people being drawn to me to feeling as though I've been pushing them away?When did I lose that self confidence I had become so used too.
Tonight I'm certainly tired..... I'm tired of life..
Friday, October 06, 2006
Lesson~ turn the lights on!
Well, I was making my breafast this am getting ready for work. Ever since I started losing weight I make it a point to eat breakfast which was something I never used to do..
While at the stove doing my scrambled eggs Diane walked by me with a basket of clothes going towards the basement. I asked her what she was doing, it isn't normal in our house to be doing laundry at 5 am.. She said she needed her clothe for the gym tonight so she was going to do an early load..
Within a minute I heard a bang and a scream.. She fell on the stairs and hit the baseboard heater at the bottom near the floor. Looks like she may have broken her little toe. I flew down there and once she said she was ok my only reply was .. Why didn't you put the light on ... I got that blank stare again ....
While at the stove doing my scrambled eggs Diane walked by me with a basket of clothes going towards the basement. I asked her what she was doing, it isn't normal in our house to be doing laundry at 5 am.. She said she needed her clothe for the gym tonight so she was going to do an early load..
Within a minute I heard a bang and a scream.. She fell on the stairs and hit the baseboard heater at the bottom near the floor. Looks like she may have broken her little toe. I flew down there and once she said she was ok my only reply was .. Why didn't you put the light on ... I got that blank stare again ....
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Big stuff happenin
Big news on the horizon and I don't want to drop the ball just yet and jinx anything. That's just a nice way of saying I don't wanna be embarassed if it falls through.. lol .. Diane and I are working on a new venture and it could mean financial security for a while if it pans out .. kind of exciting and scary all at once.... more to come!!
Monday, October 02, 2006
Um??????? Hamster neglect?
Woman Arrested For Hamster Neglect
POSTED: 7:40 am EDT October 2, 2006
UPDATED: 7:45 am EDT October 2, 2006
JANESVILLE, Wis. -- Police arrested a woman for neglecting hamsters at her home after her roommate called authorities, police said Sunday.
Sgt. Rick Larson said police arrested the 23-year-old on 39 counts each of two charges: failing to provide food and drink and failing to provide proper shelter to animals.
The Rock County Humane Society removed 33 live and six dead hamsters.
The woman was already is facing charges of failing to provide shelter and food to a Great Dane removed from her home in August.
POSTED: 7:40 am EDT October 2, 2006
UPDATED: 7:45 am EDT October 2, 2006
JANESVILLE, Wis. -- Police arrested a woman for neglecting hamsters at her home after her roommate called authorities, police said Sunday.
Sgt. Rick Larson said police arrested the 23-year-old on 39 counts each of two charges: failing to provide food and drink and failing to provide proper shelter to animals.
The Rock County Humane Society removed 33 live and six dead hamsters.
The woman was already is facing charges of failing to provide shelter and food to a Great Dane removed from her home in August.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Changes
Been a pretty busy weekend for Dee and me .. lol .. I made a rhyme!! .. We just got back from the White Mountains this am on an overnight trip as my oldest friend got married yesterday. When I say "oldest" friend that is to say that we have been friends for the better part of 35 years.
He had a nice ceremony at a little Inn nestled in the mountains of NH. The backdrop for his vows was an area overlooking a hill and a mountain range in the distance. While it was a quaint ceremony with only 13 of his closest relatives and friends it was definitely a memorable way to pledge his love to his new wife.
When I grew up in Lawrence Ma it was on a middle class American city street much like you see on any television show. My friend grew up on the opposite side of the street 4 houses up from mine in a lime green 2 family. I could never understand why his grandfather had a lime green house ... people do that stuff intentionally?
From the time we met we have shared more than a lifetime of memories from playing little league, family tragedies,celebrations, drinking parties and all around good fun. He was there when I got married, He watched my daughter grow and treated her as though she was his niece.
When she was 2 years old I worked a second shift job, he used to stop by my house once a week and watch my daughter just so Diane could drive down and bring chocolate chip cookies to my job for us to enjoy... true friendship at its best
Whenever I did work to my home he was always the first to volunteer, the last to leave and most of all the first to crack a beer when the job was done.
When he met the love of his life it was tough for a while giving up the friend that seemed to be a permanent fixture around my home. He was like the brother in law you could never get to go home but never minded if he stayed. But as things changed and his relationship bloomed you could see a new happiness in him that hadn't been there before as if all was suddenly right with the world.
As he took his new bride this weekend with my wife and I watching on with pride I have only one thought that comes to mind ...
When will he have kids that I can spoil because payback is a bitch ......
Here's to a happy life together B&P
Luv K&D
He had a nice ceremony at a little Inn nestled in the mountains of NH. The backdrop for his vows was an area overlooking a hill and a mountain range in the distance. While it was a quaint ceremony with only 13 of his closest relatives and friends it was definitely a memorable way to pledge his love to his new wife.
When I grew up in Lawrence Ma it was on a middle class American city street much like you see on any television show. My friend grew up on the opposite side of the street 4 houses up from mine in a lime green 2 family. I could never understand why his grandfather had a lime green house ... people do that stuff intentionally?
From the time we met we have shared more than a lifetime of memories from playing little league, family tragedies,celebrations, drinking parties and all around good fun. He was there when I got married, He watched my daughter grow and treated her as though she was his niece.
When she was 2 years old I worked a second shift job, he used to stop by my house once a week and watch my daughter just so Diane could drive down and bring chocolate chip cookies to my job for us to enjoy... true friendship at its best
Whenever I did work to my home he was always the first to volunteer, the last to leave and most of all the first to crack a beer when the job was done.
When he met the love of his life it was tough for a while giving up the friend that seemed to be a permanent fixture around my home. He was like the brother in law you could never get to go home but never minded if he stayed. But as things changed and his relationship bloomed you could see a new happiness in him that hadn't been there before as if all was suddenly right with the world.
As he took his new bride this weekend with my wife and I watching on with pride I have only one thought that comes to mind ...
When will he have kids that I can spoil because payback is a bitch ......
Here's to a happy life together B&P
Luv K&D
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Hmm seems pretty on to me/ Thanks Em!
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Frivolous behaviors
As I write these I will probably do a lot of jumping around within different time periods as memory brings these events back to my mind. As I've mentioned in a previous post my mom always had a knack for reasoning out bad behaviors to substantiate what she was doing was right..
"New Furniture"
When I was about 23 my mother had decided to replace her living room set. At that time I was working 2nd shift and living in the next city with my family. The distance between us served us well most of the time and created an environment that we could actually get along in. This doesn't mean that the way she handled herself was better IMO, I just didn't have to be around it.
Mom had settled on a living room set from a local dealer known as "Furniture world" and after picking what she wanted it was determined that it would be up to 6 weeks before she would take delivery. When the set finally arrived she was anything but happy.
Mom had pointed out to me that she didn't like the way the material was sitting on the cushions and had decided that this was poor workmanship and wanted it fixed. She got on the phone with the dealer and they made an appointment to send someone out.
When the serviceman came he didn't see much wrong with the set but to appease my mom he offered to steam the fabric so it would sit a little more smoothly . It was agreed this would probably take care of the issue she was unhappy with .... WRONG!
When she would become disgruntled she was always a determined one in getting what she wanted which meant fighting with the furniture store almost daily. The store feeling there was nothing wrong with the merchandise refused to do anything further. This obviously didn't sit well and she decided to even the score.
On a determined trip to the furniture store one day mom happened to trip on a display in the store, fell down, and destroyed a set of reading glasses in the process. What most people never knew was the fact that the fall was staged and a lawsuit was in the making!!
I've never agreed with it and was ashamed of her for doing it even to this day. I couldn't believe a person who raised me explaining how much she hated liars was just as bad as the lessons she taught.
In the end the store settled out of court for thousands of dollars in court fees, lawyers fees, lost wages,medical bills, pain and suffering and most of all ..1 set of broken reading glasses. Mom got her money in such a proud manner, she had beat the furniture store after they "screwed" her over on a living room set ...
Funny how people can justify doing bad things just so they can look themselves in the mirror. I've never told anyone outside my family and closest friends of that story, but to this day I am bothered that she did it....
"New Furniture"
When I was about 23 my mother had decided to replace her living room set. At that time I was working 2nd shift and living in the next city with my family. The distance between us served us well most of the time and created an environment that we could actually get along in. This doesn't mean that the way she handled herself was better IMO, I just didn't have to be around it.
Mom had settled on a living room set from a local dealer known as "Furniture world" and after picking what she wanted it was determined that it would be up to 6 weeks before she would take delivery. When the set finally arrived she was anything but happy.
Mom had pointed out to me that she didn't like the way the material was sitting on the cushions and had decided that this was poor workmanship and wanted it fixed. She got on the phone with the dealer and they made an appointment to send someone out.
When the serviceman came he didn't see much wrong with the set but to appease my mom he offered to steam the fabric so it would sit a little more smoothly . It was agreed this would probably take care of the issue she was unhappy with .... WRONG!
When she would become disgruntled she was always a determined one in getting what she wanted which meant fighting with the furniture store almost daily. The store feeling there was nothing wrong with the merchandise refused to do anything further. This obviously didn't sit well and she decided to even the score.
On a determined trip to the furniture store one day mom happened to trip on a display in the store, fell down, and destroyed a set of reading glasses in the process. What most people never knew was the fact that the fall was staged and a lawsuit was in the making!!
I've never agreed with it and was ashamed of her for doing it even to this day. I couldn't believe a person who raised me explaining how much she hated liars was just as bad as the lessons she taught.
In the end the store settled out of court for thousands of dollars in court fees, lawyers fees, lost wages,medical bills, pain and suffering and most of all ..1 set of broken reading glasses. Mom got her money in such a proud manner, she had beat the furniture store after they "screwed" her over on a living room set ...
Funny how people can justify doing bad things just so they can look themselves in the mirror. I've never told anyone outside my family and closest friends of that story, but to this day I am bothered that she did it....
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