Saturday, December 24, 2005

Ok it's official

The world is coming to an end....

Johnny Damon is a Yankee~ that's right after talking smack and saying he could never play for them he left for money as most of these primadonnas do..

next up ..

I'm old~ yes ..I'm officially old .. I'm 40 today and dammit I need metamucil ....There's something to be said for being born a Christmas eve and trust me ..it's not good.. yea yea I got robbed more than you know as a kid and even sometimes as an adult.

Having a birthday around Xmas was always an excuse for relatives to get cheap on you. When I was a kid my Uncle George showed up for the holiday with a Christmas and a Birthday gift for me. I got a walkie Talkie for my birthday .... Yep ..I got the other as a Xmas gift..

I guess the only thing i can't complain over is the fact that birthdays aren't PC yet. I point this out because all of the PC B.S. is killing the holidays for all of us. All of the traditions we have grown up with are slowly being stripped from our lives because of non denominational people feeling we are infringing on their rights... people..within 10 yrs Dec 25th will just be another work day ...People need to lighten up ..


I was born in this country Dec 24, 1965 and I feel like I have less rights than the people migrating here do now .... go figure!

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Damn internet

OK so this am was a big morning. Maybe not for you but it was for me.. REDSOX TIX WENT ONSALE! Ol Mayday got into the webpage early with the idea that he was going to score SoxPac tix.

SoxPacs are sets of 4 tickets sold in bundles. The problem is the webpage is like standing in line @ f'in ticketmaster! How so? You have to go into this room early and your broswer gets assigned a position in line and refreshes every 30 seconds until your turn.. Close you browser and you lose your place in line.

So got in line for the Sat ticket pac and sat there for the better part of an hour. At some fukkin point my browser window got fukkin CLOSED! Yes you guessed it I lost my place in line and lost out on my F'in tickets....


Next up an hour later on tickemaster Queen/Paul Rodgers tixs went onsale @ 10am! Well I'm happy to report I was lucky enough to get good tickets for this show. This is awesome for me as I've always regarded Brian May's guitar playing very highly and even list him as an influence to some extent. Brian is one of the smartest guitarist of his time. Smart as in not being a flashy guitarist but a guitarist that could play within the bounderies of his band and know what to play Know not only what to play ..but when he shouldn't play..which is one of the hardest things for a guitarist to learn ... As guitarists we all tend to want to cram as much of our talent into a small space and not allow the songs to breath, Brian knew how to let that happen and magically.


Anyway I got my tickets so my Sat morning wasn't a total bust!

~K~

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Expectations

Are we as human beings defined upon our own indivuality or are we defined by others? Something that seems to be such an easy question to answer becomes incredibly complex by virtue of the people that we involve in our lives.

I certainly have my own expectations, desires, goals about who I am or how I want to be perceived. I am generally a giving person who at the drop of a hat will be there when asked. I consider myself to be compassionate, intelliegent and most of all I am not a follower.

On the surface it would seem these traits define who I am and my own expectations of who I want to be, am I correct? Not so fast, when do those expectations get superceeded by the people we allow into our lives be it family, friends etc.

for instance~

I make plans Friday that on Sunday I want to have a peaceful quiet day at home. I've had a rough week and simply feel like I can use the rest. I can always count on my Inlaws deciding after the fact that they want to have a family dinner on that day. It should be relatively simple to just say sorry I cannot make it correct? Not so.. A no will result in hurt feelings and a sign we do not want to be part of the family we are EXPECTED to be available.

We have had days where we have seen my inlaws Sat, Sun and are asked to dinner on a Tuesday. This would even be viewed negatively with a simple sorry can't make it.

My father inlaw loves to get on his motorcyle and "Stop" by in the summer months. No big deal right? Again on the surface it may not be but lets look at the layers. My father in law stops by constantly without ever calling to see if we are home, busy, entertaining or maybe even being intimate. Yet I've been told by him my expectation of him calling makes him feel unwelcome in my home. His expectation of feeling welcome over rides my expectations of my own privacy within my own home.

My Sister, Brother etc....

My Sister has been in and out of my life from the time we met (we are 1/2 siblings by my dad) The last time my sister came back into my life she made the statement that she would ever let me go again. Last Feb for my wive's 40th birthday I invited her friends and family to celebrate by limo to a dinner theatre in Boston. There was a limited amount of room in the limo andat the table in the theatre (12 people tops). This was further restricted by the amount of money I had to spend on the event. By having such a limited amount of resource my best alternative was to have the people closest to my wife attend. This meant HER family 1st, then her friends.

My sister took this as being disloyal to her and has not spoken to me since. Her expecations of me superseeded that of my desire to do something nice and memorable for my wife.

My brother Roy has never really had expectations per'se of me but he has never gone out of his way to make me feel like we were brothers. I guess this has always bothered me a bit as my biggest desire was to have a full family~ To date I am simply alone and an only child... When my brother moved from Mass to Maine his wife mentioned how he misses me and wants me to come up and spend time with them. My brother still works in Mass and during the week lives 5 min from my home yet never calls to get together with me when he has time.

My cousin~

I rarely speak to my cousin and it isn't anything more than our path rarely cross. I heard from her this weekend and she made it a point to tell me she wanted to get together. I told her the only time I would have for this would be after the holidays as Dec is a busy month on the weekends. She wanted to talk to me this day and I hadn't had time so told her when I got cance I'd call. Well to be perfectly honest I forgot to call and she feels as though I am intentionally avoiding her. Not bad considering I only hear from her 2/3 times a year ... So her expectations of my being available to her superceed my expectations to get my Dec chores done for the holidays.

My friend

I have a friend that I've known almost my entire life. He has always taken the high road when it comes to making plans. If I call and ask if he would go see a specific concert or a bike run and he doesn't feel interested then he simply will not do it. The flip side is that if it is something he is interested in doing he gets a bit put off if I say I'm not interested.

so what is the one catalyst in these few stories and believe me I could go all afternoon. Expectations always seem to be of what I can do for others and never what can be important to me. So at what point do my own wants and needs define who I m in other peoples lives? I've gotten to the point with the people in my life that I'm only as good to the as what I have to give and not simply who I am. In doing this I have now hit a crossroad where I am trying to learn to allow myslef to worry about me and not care if others expectations of me are to high...

Enough for now~
~K~

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Wow, Thanksgiving morning 2005


Well I never expected to be blogging anything this morning. I certainly expected to wake up, enjoy a cup of coffee and watch the parade that is the daily thanksgiving ritual for so many.

The difference is that we have awoken to several inches of the first snowfall for the season here. I love the first few snowfalls leading up into Christmas and early Jan and then I have pretty much had enough.

So here we begin Holiday season 2005....







Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Happy Thanksgiving people!


Well here we are, T-day eve 2005 and another year almost down. I can't believe the holiday season is about to start already and another year passes like the gas from our german shepherd. As I get older I can't believe how fast the time seems to be going so I figured I take a moment for a little reflection in honor of the holiday..

I wanted to talk about the things I'm thankful for, I know that is a little cliche but all too often those little things tend to be a bit forgotten.


I'm thankful for:

The fact that I'm still alive after so many of my younger years thinking I'd never see the age of 30 and now I'm about to hit 40.

I'm thankful that for all the times I've been an asshole my wife still sees enough good in me to continue being my best friend, regardless of what I put her through (Yes Sull Dutch ovens not withstanding)

I'm thankful for what family I still have in my life. While this seems like a logocal thing it hits home harder for me as Dec and the holiday season is always the most depressing time of year.

I'm thankful that I've made so many wonderful friends over the last few years through the JCF. I find it so amazing to know people so closely without ever meeting face to face. I hope to make many more lasting friendships.

I'm thankful that after a rough 2 years my love of guitar is slowly creeping back into my fingers and it's becoming an enjoyment to me again. It was like a long lost love I never thought I'd find.

I'm thankful that I'm finally working to be a better person within my own life and begining to feel more comfortable with who I am.

I'm thankful I didn't have to: Buy,Kill,Clean or Cook the fukking bird tomorrow...which mean there is no getting up at 5am for me.

I'm thankful for: Sam Adams,Heinekin,Black and Tans,Corona,Capt and Cokes,Jameson,Jack Daniels and any other tasty treat that'll make ya do stupid things....

I'm thankful for: Charvel,Jackson,Gibson,Line6,Marshall, and anything else that will help kill my hearing.

I'm thankful for blogs just so I can laugh my ass off ....


If you have gotten this far I'm thankful you cared enough to read through all my bullshit!!


Hope everyone has a great T-day
~K~

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Waiting for fedex,The Land of Em & Do you like catfish?

Not a lot to report today life is a bit mundane I guess. I'm sitting here wasting my Sat away waiting for the damn fedex guy to drop of a new piece of gear. The thing that sucks is that the shipper put signature required and stupid fedex wont give a time or a window that they will be here.. So they waste my day kinda like the dipshit cable company ...

RedSox news .. Gabe Kapler has been released! This is very depressing news to me because I was so happy to see him return from Japan this year. I was lucky enough to see him play in single A ball during his rehab which was cool even though he didn't do much ..

Weather.. It has turn cold almost over night. We had frost last night and had there been moisture in the air it wouldhave snowed dammit. I swear as I get older the stupid summers get shorter...


You'll note I've added some new links today.. to the land of Emtrax and to Catfish theory. Em is a way cool chick who I've met on the BB I help run. Her blog is always chock full of good shit that gets bounced between her and Sull unlike mine which usually sits stangnant. Anyway check this girl out, she's cool and she rocks on Jackson guitars which is always #1 in my book!

Catfish is a good friend of Sully and a fellow guitar enthusiest.. Check out his new strat!

it seems we have some blog circles going on so it's best to rotate and see who is up on things ..

Nough said!
~K~

Friday, November 11, 2005

Veterans Day

Please take a moment and pay respects to all the veterans who have given us the ability to live in the manner we do. If it wasn't for these brave people we would not have the freedoms that we have ......

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Politics,Christians and Human beings

Tuesday was a big milestone in several areas of our country. Some serious issues were put to vote mainly in Texas (gay marriage) and Maine ( trying to rescind gay discimination rights of employment)

Let me start of with a minor blurb about myself and my views.

Religion~

I grew up in Lawrence Mass and I was raised protestant. I went to church on Sundays, Sunday school and bible school in the summer.

While I remain protestant by denomination I am non practicing at the moment.

My wife was raised devout catholic and even attended catholic schools etc. To this day her mom is a volunteer for their church. Other than the day I got married I rarely attend church for several reasons, some are the views of the molestation cover ups all the way to the amount of money the church collects. IMO like any organization that gets too big for itself it suddenly becomes about power and money and not its intended purpose.

Politics~

I am a registered republican and share a lot of very conservative views on gun rights, welfare benefits and the way taxes are collected and distributed. I also have some more liberal views regarding abortion, Civil Rights etc. This sometime causes conflicts within myself when it comes to politicians and where they land on either side of the political line.


As we all know Tuesday was a big vote which lost in Texas that would enable gay people the right of marriage. It is beyond me why in this day and age we are allowed to discriminate in certain ways and criticize about basic human rights in others.

In Maine Tuesday there was a referendum on the ballot to repeal a state law. This law states tha tit is ILLEGAL so discriminate based on sexual orientation in regards to employment. In a nut shell what is so bad about that law?

Jeff/Work~

I work with an engineer here that is a devout Christian. He isn't the type of Christian that bible bumps whenever he gets the chance and usually reserves it for conversations that have already been initiated. Jeff is very much like me in believing that you should exercise your right to vote regardless of whether you feel it makes a difference or not. (Jeff is from ~ MAINE)

To take that a step further we are also of the belief that if you don't vote then you don't have the right to your opinion regarding the results, you've given your right to complain up at midnight on voting day.


On Wed morning Jeff stopped in nd I asked him if he voted on Tuesday knowing full well where I would be headed with the conversation. Jeff answered by saying he hadn't which was a big disappointment to me given our views on the matter. He had decided it was more important to go have a pick-up basketball game Tuesday instead of hustling home and pulling the lever.

It was the next sentence that took me by surprise even though I shouldn't have been. He was disappointed his referendum had been defeated to which I inquired what it was. "Gay Rights!"


I could not believe someone who was a Christian could be that way. I certainly can understand his beliefs on homosexuality from a religious point of view even if I do not agree. I was taken back by the fact that anyone could be against a basic human right of not being discriminated against!

People it does not matter whether you are

straight,gay,transgendered,black,white,Christian,atheist,Satanist or simply just finding your way through life why should be be legal to fire someone for just being? This country has come a long way from where it was founded but I learn everyday that we have a long way to go in just treating each other with respect.

Last time I was involved with any type of bible study was years ago but I am of the belief it teaches about love and non-judgment, yet time and time again if you are not a Christian then you are treated like scum by these people. This is the biggest thing that drove me from religion


You want to fire someone from a job then do it for the right reasons~ incompetence,absenteeism,susbstance abuse etc...But not for being human ...



Kiev

Monday, November 07, 2005

oh monday monday

Well,

I spent 3 hours this am making a part for a job I'm doing at work. It was the Aluminum bracket and I thought things were going really good. Then I was talking to my partner about the job and I nocticed on the drawing Material = STAINLESS STEEL!

WTF not not only did i waste 3 hours but cutting stainless takes so much longer than aluminum ... Fukkin mondays ..

On a lighter note I was looking at a Kahler Pro I have and thinking that I might be able to replace the springs under it with a solid plate and that would make it a psuedo apm 3310 mayday hahdtail. So I started to figure it out and damn I'm pretty sure it would be relatively easy to do ... wonder if there's a market for it ...

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Dontchya just hate

People who think you have no life. I read this today on my buddies site. If I wasn't busy machining stuff for people then I'd be able to update my blog more often. Unforunately when you have to keep your friends happy there aren't always enough hours in a day.

"what's not nice is when you lazy fuckers don't update stuff! life is all
around you, man! fart out a sentence or two, sheesh! can ya help a brotha'
out?"


Thursday, November 03, 2005

Lazy people suck!

Let me start by saying that people where I work are fairly educated people. I work in a model shop within an engineering group. Most of the people that work here have degrees whether it be Associates,Masters and several have PHD's. This qualifies these people as educated one would assume.

With that said I cannot count the times that I go into the bathroom and people do not flush the toilets. To take that a step further a lot of these same "Educated" people go to the bathroom and they walk out without ever so much as running even water over their hands.

I have to admit it gets pretty irritating and quite disgusting when you see people who appear to be clean and intelligent doing that and then go to the cafe to eat their lunch.

C'mon people how much effort does it really take? I'd bet these are the same people that would freak out to find a piece of hair stuck in their food at a restaurant ...


Wake the fuck up please... WASH YOUR HANDS!

Monday, October 31, 2005

G.I.F

G.I.F .. what can I say.

Oh not the file tag .. G.I.F was a term that Sully coined in regards to internet message boards. G.I.F or Gay internet fighting is just that. Fighting that really doesn't mean a rats ass.

Ever run an internet bulliten board? How about taking that a step further and running a high profile 6000 registered member internet board dedicated to a brand of guitars. Then add to that a smaller board that is a subsidary of the larger with a finatical group of people who collect for either noteriety or money.

When you start dealing with collectors and especially collectors of vintage intruments you might as well be challenging every unmarried woman in your state to a competition for a wedding gown blowout sale because I honestly believe you'de do better with the sale.

In these collecting circles you quickly learn that for some it's all about posturing and power. Yeah I know the word power really sounds kind of funny relating to a message board but i swear that it is true.

I've met thousands of people online and hundreds face to face, but few I ever let into my private life. I'm simply a private person who is dealing with their own issues in life and don't need to add more icing to the cake. But every once in a while you let your guard down and someone gets in. for instance as in previous posts I've talked about my old pal Sull who is one of the positives to being involved with the internet in this manner.

The problem is that every once in a while one gets in that you assume is your friend. The problem is that once they get in it then becomes a nightmare when you learn it is all about posturing and power not friendship. This particular person was let in and made an administrator of the forum I own and without getting into nasty details I simply assumed he was a friend.

When things went south he bailed on the forum citing friendship and not wanting to ruin that. I later learned that he's started a competing board (which really is no big deal) but told people not to let me know and continues to email me still telling me we are "Bros"

I supposed even that shouldn't bother me but in this little private world I am not supposed to know of it has been brought to my attention that my good name os being dragged around by said owner and friends. This is something we would have never allowed within our board but the thing that gets me is ..this was and claims to still be a friend to me.

Maybe I'm being a bit over sensitive as I've been pretty sick for the past week, but is that the definition of what friendship is?

Webster's defines friendship as:

Main Entry: friend·ship
Pronunciation: 'fren(d)-"ship
Function: noun
1 : the state of being friends
2 : the quality or state of being friendly : FRIENDLINESS
3 obsolete : AID

I certainly don't see how that definition fits into the treament I've been given by my particualr peer. The sad part is this whole thing is that I remain a private person specifically because of things like this. I guess this means in the future I really need to be more selective about who I let in and who I don't ..

The message board? It's done with now I'll be closing it down and focusing on the larger one for the time being simply because there are people on that board that aren't about posturing and power, just learning and enjoyment ...

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Sleepless in NH

Well it's 4 am here and I'm typing out a blog, I guess you can figure out who can't sleep huh.. I just dropped by old Sully's site and in case you hadn't seen his blog he is in the process of buying his 1st home.

It started of as a real stressful time for him but it's obvious that as the process get rolling his excitement is starting to become enhanced. You can see the changes in him almost like a little school girl going to her first dance ..heh ..how fitting!!

Seriously though, I met Sully through the board I run the JCF and we instantly hit it of as friends. All through that period He went through some pretty tough times living up in Chicago and decided that he was going to move to Texas to his sisters to get his life in order.

I guess you could say that was the turning point for what could have been a very scary time for him and he's come around 10 fold since then, It's actually great to hear him happy and dealing with so many positive things and not a lot of grief. Instead of dealing with the grief now he just gives it and that's usually to me in some form of an adjective.

All in all he's doing great and I'm proud of what he's accomplished since being in Tx.

Go Sull! Cheers to ya

Kev

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Man oh Man!

Well it is Wed already and what do I have to show for it. I'm sick dammit! Monday I felt my throat getting sore, not raw sore mind you but painful sore. I had a feeling what I might be in for as Diane had it the week before so I'm sure you can guess how I probably caught it.

Tuesday morning I woke up and would have sworn I did 10 rounds in the UFC's. My throat and my sinuses absolutely ached! I decided the best thing for me was to just rest so I took the day off from work. As the day went on I felt slightly better but again this am I felt as though I had been in a war so here I am again home resting. Not that I mind taking a day off from work but I do end up feel a bit guilty for not being there getting my project done (Go figure!)

Yesterday was a bit of a wild day as the remnants of the hurricane scooted by New England in the Atlanic and we had a storm system come trhough that drew from it. We ended up with a fall noreaster which was pounding rain and wind gust to 60 mph. While there hasn't been a drastic change yet in the leaves the area looks like a war zone, a lot of the leaves got blown off the trees from the gusts!


Now we have to start getting ready to clean up the leaves (If we ever get rid of the rain!)


Friday, October 21, 2005

TGIF

So it's Friday almost 3pm and it's been a long damn day. I guess the only positive part of it is that there is no work tomorrow thank god. The sun is shining today and there is that nice hint of autumn in the air. If you have never experienced fall in New England you get used to the faint smell of the autumn leaves every year. It isn't something I can explain or relate it to anything else other than to say that whenever it hit's my nose, it is definitely a familiar odor to me every year.

This is the one time of year that I love being in New England. The crispness of the air, the changing of the leaves and that familiar smell all remind me that I'm alive. I guess it isn't hard to tell that this is my favorite season here. There are a lot of times where I'd love to live in other parts of the country but this is the one time I simply feel grounded here and know I'd miss it terribly.

So we get a minor reprieve from the rain for a few days, of at least until tomorrow night. It seems like I have so much to do before the snow flies and the weather just keeps pushing that out of reach. I'll have leaves to rake up and a yard full of things that need to be stored all on top of some house maintenance to get finished up.

C'mon 3:30 .........

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Wow

Hey guess what, The SUN is out!! Don't hold your breath tho they said it will be raining again later this afternoon- Go F'in figure ..

Anyway onward ..

For those that know me are aware that I run a few forums for the fans of Charvel Jackson guitars http://www.jacksonguitars.com

The 1st forum I am lucky enough to run with 4 other guys that have the same passion as I do http://www.jcfonline.com which is dedicated to Charvel/Jackson guitars of all creeds.

the 2nd forum I run is dedicated strictly to USA Charvels http://www.charvelcentral.com and is run by myself and 2 other individuals.

In my many years of collecting and playing music I've been blessed to meet many people, and be involved in some cool things regarding these guitars,the people who make them, the people who play them and in some instances the artists who endorse them.

In my endevours I've been lucky enough to design a few limited guitar runs that have been extremely successful and most recently was a run we affectionately nicknamed "The Dweezil Green Meanie" after Dweezil Zappa original green charvel in which I teamed up with Matt from http://www.mattsmusic.com a great dealer out of Massachusetts!

This runs was a Green charvel, with a Floyd, one hum (Duncan Custom) and a maple board. The run was completed as a 20 guitar lot with 10 reversed headstock and 10 regular by the Charvel/Jackson custom shop. I am pleased to say that these guitar turned out to be nothing short of amazing and I am pleased to be a part of it. Here is Reveresed #1 in all her glory






A few years ago in 2001 and 2002 I appraoched a dealer out of Oklahoma who whould help me do a ltd run of 30 Black and White Bullseye Charvels. Lloyd ended up becoming a good friend to me and he runs an online music store http://www.guitarexpress.com and his own guitar line http://www.sandimasguitars.com

In 2001 USA Charvels were not a standard production guitar and had been sleeping for several years in the correct form. The last true USA Charvels that rolled off of the line were in 1986 and the only way to get one done was a custom order. Lloyd and I decided that we could do a proper run of USA Charvels and do it the right way. The run was a huge success and revered as some of the best modern Charvels to come out of the factory. To date I have not only not heard a bad word concerning those guitars it has gotten to the point that they rarely sell and people actually watch for them to buy one. I'd like to beleive this run was the springboard for the newly released USA standard line and the mother to the the Green Charvel seen above..

Here is Bullsyeye #1 in all her glory.


I'm proud to have been a part of these runs and a part of the ressurection of an 80's legend in 80's metal. I only hope that these guitars will be enjoyed for generations to come and anyone who remembers these 2 runs remember the people associated with them

I hope everyone appreciates them as much as I have and makes some great music with theirs...

Kev

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Rain Rain Rain .... oh did I mention rain?

Well we had something like 10 days of straight rain up here in the north east. There were several areas west of me out in the Keene area that flooded and left about 1000 people homeless. Now the rivers are swelling over their banks around here.

I work directly across from the Merrimac River in Methuen Ma and while I'm in no danger where I am just down the road there are homes that are surrounded by river water now. The local news also mentioned a dam in Taunton Ma that is on the verge of bursting and flooding that city. WTF is going on with the weather pattern this year?

Here we are on Tuesday, it rained until Sat then Sun was supposed to be sunny and dry...uhuh .. maybe overcast and raw..at least there wasn't much rain. Monday showed a bit of Sunlight and today ..yup ..more rain!! Local news says there may be more on the way..

Anyone know how to build an Ark?

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Oct 16th 1989 - Oct 16th 2005

Well,

Today is the 16th of Oct and funny enough it is the 16th anniversary of the day I started working at my current job. I never thought I would last 3 years at this company let along 16 years as prior to that my Avg was only 2-3 years.

Being a machinst as most can attest way "Back in the day" a good number of us were gypsies within the trade. While this sounds like a funny description it will make a bit of sense after some old mayday explaining.

Getting our of a trade school and paying your dues usually meant busting your ass in some sweatshop for minum wage (IE: $3.35 an hour back then) . We all pay dues in life so most can probably understand the theory. Unless you got into an apprentiship program back then the best way to gain experience and to move up the ladder was to be a gypsy. In essence another sweatshop would make an offer of .50 cents or $1 more an you were off to make more cash and learn new things. The only time you ever heard of established guys were those of high experince working for large defense contractors and even at that they were union and had the tenure to avoid layoffs...

So this led to my current job. I had been working in a union company for the defense industry in 1989 to make a living. I've worked on the Patriot missle battery , Blackhawk helicopter, Apahe Helicopter systems and even the space suttle within my career.

in 1989 the defense industry started to bottom out as the russians were slowly no longer becoming a threat and money was being filtered into other sectors of the economy. At that time the company I was working for Craig Systems needed 12 million in orders to be able to just stay open and we had 1 million and no outlook for anymore for the year.

Being a union boy it was easy to see the painting on the wall, Layoffs! When you are in a union job it is easy to see if you will be losing your job simply by virtue of your start date and who has been there longer.

I started looking for a job as soon as the rumors started flying. A good friend of mine that not only worked at Craigs with me but went through trade school with me had gotten an interview for a semi conductor company called MKS. In my research of the company I had noted they had a huge amount of openings over a period of time and simply assumed that they could not keep help. After a bit of coaxing Paul got through and pushed me into appying with him.

My interview had gone well enough for MKS to make an offer within 24 hours and I simply turened the down. I had assumed that it would be done with that but odd enough they decided to counter offer. I remember it vividly it was on a friday afternoon the phonecall came in. Instead of giving them a commitment I asked if it was possible to think about the offer over the weekend.

Monday morning would serve to be my do or day morning because it wasn't long before we were told that the layoffs were to be announced on Wed. Being union you have to be given a notice before they can let you go. I got on the payphone and accpeted my new job right then and there with the stipulation I wouldn't start for 3 weeks so I could have a vacation ...

I started at MKS on Oct 16th 1989 in their machine shop as a "B" machinist. Eventually I moved up to "A" then tool and die/fixturing and eventually the model shop for the engineering dept where I am currently.

It hasn't all been a smooth ride for the last 16 years but what makes it good is the people I work with and at times the challenging ideas our engineers come up with. It doesn't hurt that every once in a while I get to put a degreed MIT grad to shame by giving him the WTF are you stupid look and trust me as educated as they are.. sometimes they are stupid!

A few years ago we were going through a round of one of the many sets of Layoffs we have had and my friend Paul got layed off. We had not only gone through school together but endured Craig systems together, MKS, My wedding, Watching our kids grow together and in one instance it was gone. Oct 16th 2001 my office phone rang with Old Pauls voice on the other end letting me know he had been let go. He chuckled a remarked "Well Kev I almost made it" I asked what that was and he explained his 12th anniversary ..After a brief silence I calmy stated "Paul today was our 12th annivesary" ... He had been let go 12 years to the day of our starting day.....

Life goes on and stories forever change but the one thing for me that remains constant is the fact that at 6am tomorrow that alarm will go off and it will be me working on my 17th year at the company wondering if and when it will be my turn to take my stuff and go home ....

K

Friday, October 14, 2005

Diversity

I got into an odd discussion today about life with a co-worker that really struck me a bit funny. It started out for what ever reason with the differences in religion and how we act based on what we claim are our beliefs ..

Norm was brought up strict catholic and even attended catholic schools throughout his life. Well old Norm was stating how he felt the Catholic Church was hypocritical which to be 100% honest I agree with him 110%. Norm was saying how people go to pray and follow gods word yet they leave the church and begin breaking rules as soon as they leave. Getting in their cars swearing at the other drivers, using birth control or simply passing judgement on other human beings..

It’s funny how the religious card always paves a path to other subjects that intertwine with it so tightly and yet certainly change the direction of conversation abruptly. Norm is of the same school of thought as I am in the sense that if you go through life and be the best person you can, not intentionally hurt others and help out and car about your fellow brothers and sisters that all the rest paves the way.

So the simple turn in conversation was born off of one thing I said. “I think it’s awful that people take it upon themselves to judge GLT people and that wasn’t anyone but gods decision to judge” You would have thought I put a hot poker through old Norm’s skull.

Norm retorted how he had his own opinions of those people and how they say they are born that way ..etc etc etc blah blah blah blah … the fact is old Norm suddenly became no better than any other god preaching individual!

At what point do we draw a line and state that difference is wrong in people? Think about how complex the human body is from your fingers and toes all the way down to the smallest chromosome. Add the mysteries and complexities not only the earth but the entire universe and imagine the billions of pieces of matter that intertwine each individual piece to make up what our minds are able to comprehend.

Is it so wrong to think the Gays, Lesbians and Transgender people are any different than any other person who walk the street. It’s easy in this day an age to put a label on things that are different from us yet made up of the exact same genetic material and still not be able to accept that we are all just human beings.

Without diversity we become a very boring part of a very interesting a different world. Without diversity we stagnate and we do not learn that the very things that make us different forever push us forward into learning and seeing things in a new way.

I have to admit this conversation that started in a way that I could relate too had taken such an odd twist. I felt a bit hurt by the fact that someone who appeared to have some intelligence and compassion turned out to be just as hypocritical as the people he was speaking of …

At the end of the day whether you agree or disagree with how people dictate their lives remember one thing. For a very short time within this universe we are all bonded by similar genetic material… We are all human beings, brother and sisters regardless of how different anyone might be …


Live your life with pride and treat each other with respect, kindness and most off all compassion …

Light hearted nature

I've been getting some shit this am about not updating my "New" blog. Let me start by saying this blog wasn't intended as anything more than a joke to needle a very good friend of mine and maybe get a laugh.. Which worked btw..

See Sull and I have a habit of being pranksters and jokers with each other, which helps alleviate the bullshit side of life at times. The fact is no matter how rough life can appear I can always count on ole Sull to put a lighter step in my mood if even for a brief time.. I'd like to believe at times I've been able to do the same ..

There's been a myriad of times where life has just kicked me in the ass and I can just hear Sull making sexual comments in some foreign accent. It's those times that make memories of friendship, camaraderie and just plain good times ..
With that stated it's not all roses..

I have a serious update on the way....

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Sweet Tuesday

OK,

So I decided after reading everyone else's blogs it was time to add my 2 cents..if that's what it is worth nowaday's ..... so here goes

1) The air is much sweeter today~ The Yankees lost!
2) The more I read my pal Sulls blogs the more I realize I'm not as fucked up as I used to think
3) There's something to be said for people who argue about coffee over the net ..I'm not sure what .. but I'd bet I could think of something .. refer to #2 please ..

that's it for now I gotta get back to work!